Working invisible

Today was like one of those hectic days and I realised I was working in invisible form. My staff is on 2 days leave so she's physically not here. But being physically here and invisible at the same time is what I summarised my situation at the end of the day.

The morning in the office started with phones ringing requesting for IDs, password reset, clarification, solution to internet access problem, and whatnots. As if being engaged on one line is not enough I had to bear the beeping sound from the receiver indicating callers on hold. I was working like a mad person at times, rushing to collect printouts and back to my workstation, answering calls one after the other.

More often than not I'm not able to get things done cos as soon as I'm midway into some work something else, urgent, would come to me requiring immediate attention. Can't work like this anymore. Soon I wouldn't be able to live like this. Amidst all the display of tension from me it looked like no one else notice my predicament. I wonder if they could if they hear a loud thud on my table one fine day! Well, hope it won't come to that..

When Corporation embarks on Transformation

There's certainly sadness, anger, resentment, and feeling of betrayal prevailing over employees in the end when big corporation, after engaging 'consultants' to transform management and employees, not only fail to address employee's issues like basic salary but instead impose stringent criteria on distribution of bonus and salary increment and adjustment.

It's really sad that there are some hardworking staff whose salary are not adjusted during the salary adjustment period. Percentile of salary increment also depends on the KPI (key performance index), but then how accurate are the ratings that were accorded which were even subjected to moderation by management?

Here's what I boldly posted in their portal as part of the survey. A small piece of my mind, but then again, we are but the little fish in a vast blue ocean...

Transformation surely involves tremendous cost and sacrifices but, ultimately, as a layman and being at the 'receiving end', it clearly instills fear and risk of instability in everyone's career from the result of this process.

Transformation coming from top-down is fruitless without data and facts coming from down-upwards. Do not even mention the data gathering were in place as the surveys did not address the employees' issues at hand.

Growth does not happen when the parents dictate, but when they begin to hear the voices of their children!

My life flashing before my eyes..

Unable to focus on my work, though I managed to complete one complex data extraction. Been thinking about what the orthopaedic doctor said when he took a look at the sole of my right foot. Been having some kind of wound past 4-5 months already. I still think it must have been caused during panic when I stepped onto broken glass at my backyard during heavy downpour when the monsoon drain behind my home overflowed and was rushing into my kitchen. Previously doctors gave my anti-fungal cream but lately this company doctor told me with confidence it was 'angio eczema' - or foot ulcer, caused by poor blood circulation.

When I went to the orthopaedic specialist last week he had the opportunity to look at it and shook his head in doubt and insisting that I should go check with a dermatologist. He had a feeling it might be cancer. Cancer??? You know you'll freak out when someone, or rather a doctor, says it to you? As of now, I'm still waiting for the guarantee letter before I make the appointment. Of course it's not factual yet but don't blame me if it's affecting my life already. I feel like my life is slowly flashing before my eyes..